Life is unpredictable, it’s always good to prepare for the unprepared and expect the unexpected. Talking seems so easy but how could people even prepared for something which is unexpected?
Nonetheless, at this moment of time, unexpected thing really happened.
Neither did I expect Audrey to come nor did she expect to see me in this bloody mess.
The first gift I gave to her after a day of separation or so was the tears and emotionless expression on her face.
“Kobe… you really failed…” I said that to myself even after I promised to make her laugh and live happily like a princess in her palace.
But in reality, I made her cried so much.
Her tearful face and her blacken eye filled with emptiness were the last thing I saw before she escape from reality.
Maybe ignorance is bliss but I could not pretend that nothing had happened anymore. The only thing I did was to grab onto her hand, preventing her from running away.
No- I don’t want her to run away from me. I held her hands tightly, as if chaining her down here.
Turning her head, she looked at me with a shocked expression as she was trying to have a grip on what is going on. Our eyes met, but this isn’t enough as I pretty sure she is going to run away sooner or later. I need to do something…
“Audrey… I’m-“
Her soft hand covered my mouth before I could end my sentence.
She was right in front of my face, with her hand covering my mouth as if telling me that it is okay for me not to speak.
“Don’t leave me behind…” She cried while holding onto me so tightly as if she was holding onto someone is about to disappear into the thin air. It was her turn to chain me down.
Her face was so close to me until I could feel her tears running down from my cheek like a tiny river stream flowing downwards.
She is still crying.
I need to assure her that I am okay in order to stop her from crying.
“Audrey… I’m okay…-“
“No you’re not!”
She denied as if I was a little kid trying to lie to my mother.
“Okay…I’m not…”
The words slipped off from my mouth without second thought.
If only I knew what is going on in her mind, I would wish that I never said that.
“I knew that you’re not…”
She cried even harder and I could hardly move anymore especially she gripped so tightly onto me.
I was speechless as I could not know what to do at right now. Never did someone teach me how to react to this situation. She was stubborn and I know that I was weak to this attack of her. But still, I need to do something.
I held onto her hand which was covering my mouth.
Her hand filled with uneven patch of bloodstain and the fresh scar pricked by the needles. Ruby blood was flowing out slowly from her hand, staining both her already-stained clothes and my hand redder.
Right now, it was not her blood which I am holding, but it was her very own life.
The scars of her hand was caused by herself as she rushed here impulsively, the desire to see me was so great that she couldn’t care about herself. I was angry at her impulsive act, but at the same time, I was touched by it.
This moment, the girl whom I love was gripping tightly onto me, as if telling me that she wants to be with me forever. Anyone who saw it will be envy of it, I was really lucky to have her.
“I will not leave you ever again…”
I assured her by holding tightly onto her as this is the something which she really deserved and the only thing I could do right now.
Her hair brushed onto my face as she was nodding her head.
Both of us were holding each other tightly, so tightly that her clothes were stained with my heavy blood-stained clothes, so tightly that my hands were covered with her blood as well.
It was messy but it didn’t stop us from embracing each others.
The two held onto each others like how the Earth is bind closely with the sky. Both of them had promised each others that they will never leave one another again.
The color red means life.
For the both of them, this is the beginning of their new life, where two of them have promised themselves to walk into the unpredictable future together.
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